What happened?

Last night I had all kinds of offers Togo out with friends. I did in fact go with an old friend since I'd asked her to go see a band that I've been wanting to see for months now. Then another friend called and asked me to go see this band but I declined because I already had plans to go. Then another friend invited me to go see another band! So many choices. Bottom line though, I wanted to see the band that I've been wanting to see for MONTHS now. Of course, when my friend I was out with said she no longer wanted to go and see the band, I responded with 'that's ok. I'm tired anyhow' which was total bs. I was wide awake and wanting to go see the band!!! And did I go? No. I should have gone anyhow. Back in the day I'd have gone alone. I should have at least stopped to see the other band play... But I didn't. Instead I was my current spineless self and went home. Aggravated. What happened to me? It's time to stop being that way I think.....